Author: reubenroyk@gmail.com

  • Grimgar: Ashes and Illusions

    Grimgar: Ashes and Illusions

    Good show. You could never really tell who would die next, which really made it a bit nicer.

  • Clevatess

    Clevatess

    I found this anime randomly on youtube, so I was very surprised when it turned out to be good.

    The animation is good.
    The story is pretty great.
    The main characters are not overpowered.
    Some of the motivational lines are actually motivating while still managing to remain realistic.

    I’ll simplify the story. Clevatess is a dark beast lord, is incredibly powerful and is stationed one corner of the known/explored world.

    Heros attempt to slay Clevatess and other dark beast lords so that they can venture further and expand the know world.

    Clevatess annoyed by the humanoids (who are like ants to him) attacking him, decides to investigate. He takes a humanoid form and gets to know the humanoid world up close and personal.

    We get to observe all of this through the eyes of a entity that knows little of the humanoids, like an alien just observing humans.
    The MC does not act as the hero himself, if there is death, destruction, violence and injustice happening around him, he simply observes and does not interfere.

    Thankfully the world in question is shrouded in mystery and each new occurrence makes the world a little bit more interesting.

  • Trigun Stampede

    Trigun Stampede

    One of the best perhaps.

    All thanks to Studio Orange.

    They think CGI is the future of animation. Hard to refute, considering the stuff they’ve managed to put out.

  • Vaping: The Silent Killer of Our Atmosphere

    Vaping: The Silent Killer of Our Atmosphere

    In the grand theater of environmental villains, vaping has emerged as the unsuspected yet relentless destroyer of our planet’s atmosphere. Move over, coal plants and gas guzzlers; there’s a new nemesis in town, and it’s packing flavored clouds and LED lights.

    Puffing on Pollution

    Every time a vaper exhales a cloud of watermelon-mint vapor, they might as well be blowing a hole straight into the ozone layer. The very essence of vaping involves the vaporization of e-liquids, a process that, if you squint hard enough, looks suspiciously like a microcosm of industrial pollution. Those fluffy clouds of aerosol might seem harmless, but they are undoubtedly the harbingers of doom.

    Let’s talk about those e-liquids. Made from a cocktail of chemicals, including the ever-elusive “natural flavorings,” these concoctions release volatile organic compounds (VOCs) into the air. Sure, VOCs also come from plants and trees, but when did nature ever get a free pass?

    Batteries: The Heartbeat of Environmental Havoc

    Ah, lithium-ion batteries. The same powerhouses that keep our smartphones alive now propel our e-cigarettes into atmospheric devastation. Extracting lithium is no picnic for Mother Earth. Mining operations strip landscapes bare, guzzling water, and spitting out toxic waste. If lithium were a person, it would be the guy who drinks all your beer at the party and doesn’t even bring a bag of chips.

    When these batteries die, as all good things must, they rarely get the eco-friendly send-off they deserve. Instead, they are often tossed aside like yesterday’s news, seeping hazardous chemicals into the ground and water. But hey, at least they had a good run powering up those sick vape tricks, right?

    Plastic Fantastics

    Let’s not forget the unsung heroes of the vaping world: the disposable plastic pods and cartridges. These non-biodegradable little devils are the epitome of modern convenience, use once, toss forever. They’ll be around long after we’re gone, serving as tiny, colorful tombstones of our collective environmental apathy.

    If only we could harness the longevity of plastic pods to create something useful, like indestructible space habitats. But alas, their destiny lies in clogging up our landfills and waterways, outliving generations of aquatic creatures who will never appreciate the irony of choking on a grape-flavored vape pod.

    A Symphony of Smog

    For those who thought vaping was just about personal choice, think again. Every puff, every charge, every discarded pod contributes to a larger symphony of smog and pollution. It’s a harmonious dance of environmental degradation, choreographed by our insatiable desire for novelty and convenience.

    In conclusion, while the world wrings its hands over carbon footprints and melting ice caps, vaping stealthily advances its agenda, one flavored cloud at a time. So, the next time you see someone exhaling a cloud of blue raspberry vapor, remember: they’re not just indulging in a harmless pastime. They’re partaking in the grand tradition of atmospheric annihilation, one puff closer to the end.

    Vape on, planet – while you still can.

  • What cause more mental fatigue: Video, Audio or Written Text?

    My friend recently made an interesting observation, watching movies can be draining. Well yeah perhaps. But to make this more clear, we’ve got to think of watching two movies or even three movies at a time.

    Then you can actually feel the drain.

    What’s the problem with this? Movies are often associated with resting or recreational activities, perhaps activities that don’t require much mental effort. But it’s instead possible that movies provide no rest and instead are quite draining.

    During strenuous work, we sometimes like to watch and episode or a series to re-charge and come back to work more energized or motivated, and often times, the episode does not produce that energizing effect.

    Anyway, I wanna know, if I were to study a certain topic, what medium should I study that in? From a text book or a doc? Or a youtube video lecture perhaps?

    After a small amount of research, it was noticed that videos are probably more draining that text, one because, the video moves at it’s own pace, not at the pace you’re comfortable with, so you would then have to operate at a faster pace in order to keep up, and because there is more information to process.

    But also, if you’re imaginative like me, then your mind does a lot of imagining and visualization as you’re reading. Which could also lead you to become distracted by thoughts and get side-tracked. Video having a set pace, does imply the subject will come to an end within a specified duration. So accumulated drain over time is likely reduced for’ information consumed through the video medium as opposed to written text.

    Written text while not as draining, could take far longer to complete, resulting in a stronger draining effect overall.

    Anyway, I remember watching a veritasium video about something similar before. I think he summarized that learning is probably best done through a combination of all media.

  • Pluribus

    Pluribus

    The most miserable person on Earth must save the world from happiness.

    It is not very good.

    One aspect I’ve come to expect from most series coming out of Apple TV+ is that none of em really have much story to tell. They have a bit of story, it’s kinda interesting.. But they will use 9 episodes to show you story and character development that could have been done in 3.

    I hear of a new type of TV series, one that is meant to be watched while you’re doing other work. Like cooking, cleaning, and other chores. In these shows, next to nothing will happen every episode, so you miss out on nothing, so we have no issue working as the series is playing in your headphones, not even looking at the screen. I was able to watch this series so quickly, because I was skipping through most of it. I assure you, I missed nothing of worth.

    Several series I’ve seen on Apple TV have been as disappointing or worse. Another show ‘Alien Invasion’, episode 1 was quite interesting, there were crop circles and something was coming! Oooh! What could it be I wonder. And then absolutely nothing happens for the next two episodes.. A guy cheats on his wife.. Apple assumes I care? Where are the f*cking aliens!

    I tried a few other shows on Apple TV, and then cancelled the subscription.

    The actress actually got a Golden Globe! Great! The show is still poo poo.

    The story is something a couple of friends would come up with at random like,

    Person 1: “Yo bro, what if aliens took over, but here’s the twist they’re not trying to kill us. What if they’re super nice”.

    Peron 2: “Yeah that’d be new, I guess..”

    “Wouldn’t it be boring though?”

    Person 1: “We’ll add a Karen to show the contrast or something?”

    Person 2: “Suure..”

    Dumb ideas like this should die here, not get onto Apple TV.

    Is it better than Blumhouse?

    It’s more effort than Blumhouse.. so we’ll give it a pass.

    Character development was alright though.

  • The Impact of being Social on Mood

    I remember reading Sam Walton’s autobiography and thinking, oh my god, what a show off. The book was packed with instances of this guy winning over and over again. It made the whole thing feel strangely boring.

    Stories are fun when there is trouble, when the main character struggles and then overcomes it. Sam Walton did go through trials and tribulations, but he seemed to recover too quickly. It almost felt fake, or at least exaggerated.

    I did not think much about this for years. Until yesterday.

    A friend and I spent some time talking about the impact of being social on mood and on general success in life. Success here being tightly coupled with mood, because you simply cannot perform when you are constantly down in the dumps.

    For loners like me, the boost in mood and productivity from spending time with a good friend is almost immediate. It is hard to miss once you notice it.

    I am overly interested in productivity and self actualization, and because of that I tend to self isolate. In my head, that time can always be repurposed for work. When my friend came to spend their vacation with me, something unexpected happened. My mood lifted, and my ability to work improved noticeably.

    That was when it clicked. Maybe Sam Walton was not exaggerating how quickly he bounced back. He was a frequent churchgoer and had strong social circles. It is entirely possible that his baseline mood and energy levels were simply higher more often than not. When hardship hit, he recovered faster because he was not doing it alone.

    I find this fascinating. Sometimes you see people who seem capable of carrying several times your own load without burning out, and you wonder how they do it. I do not have a complete answer, but I am convinced that social circles are part of it.

    Humans are not built to function in isolation. From an evolutionary and neurological perspective, our brains are wired for connection. Being around others, whether friends, coworkers, or a church community, can dramatically improve mood, focus, and productivity.

    When you interact with people in a supportive environment, your brain releases neurotransmitters like dopamine, oxytocin, and serotonin. These chemicals are associated with motivation, bonding, and emotional stability. They reduce stress and make effort feel less taxing. Tasks that feel heavy when you are alone often feel lighter when someone else is simply present, even if they are not directly helping.

    Church communities are a strong example of this effect. They offer regular social contact, shared purpose, and predictable structure. This lowers cognitive load. Your brain no longer has to constantly fight loneliness, boredom, or uncertainty. Instead of reaching for quick dopamine through YouTube or social media, your nervous system is already regulated through human connection.

    There is also an accountability effect. When others are around, your brain naturally shifts into a cooperative mode. Distraction becomes less rewarding, and focus comes more easily. This is not about pressure. It is about alignment. Your behavior starts to synchronize with the rhythm of the group.

    Community also buffers stress. Research consistently shows that people with strong social networks recover faster from setbacks, experience lower baseline anxiety, and maintain better long term mental health. Churches often provide emotional support during difficult periods, which helps keep stress hormones like cortisol in check. The result is better clarity, more energy, and improved self discipline.

    In short, social connection is not a luxury or a distraction from productivity. It is a biological requirement. Communities like churches work not only because of belief systems, but because they satisfy deep neurological and psychological needs that modern, isolated lifestyles often ignore.

  • We need to talk about Aphantasia

    There are groups of people who don’t really dream, ever. They can’t really visualize things in their mind. People say they lack a minds eye. Researchers think this is a spectrum, going from no capacity to visualize images and scenarios to having vivid imagination and recollection, to the point where it may be like reality.

    I tried extended this idea. I noticed I have a rather vivid imagination, and have often relied on it to solve problems for me. This includes math, reasonably long derivation, somewhat complex problem solving and such.

    Free body mechanics in physics for instance would come naturally to me, since the scenario in question can be visualized with mass, direction of gravity etc, and I can just watch what happens when the scenario imagined is subjected to external variables.

    Solving of most math, including most differentiation and integration problems could simply be completed in my mind.

    I also used to be able to solve hundreds of math and science problems on a single piece of paper, since the pen I used had no ink in it. The pen was merely there to simulate writing, and helped me keep items in my mind.

    So this vivid imagination really helped me. And I’d come to rely on it regularly. Since I didn’t know about this, I assumed I was just smart.

    But when I tried to learn quantum mechanics or relativity… things started falling apart.

    1 dimension – You imagine a line.

    2 dimensions – 2 lines, a plane maybe.

    3 dimensions – We’re going 3D now, this covers everything in daily life.

    4 dimensions – Hmm.. how would I imagine that?..

    5 dimensions – Um..

    A 100 dimensions – I am so lost..

    n dimensions – I’m screwed.

    Loads of subjects deal with higher dimensions than we are used to. But if you rely on visualization to understand things and store information, you’re pretty much screwed when dealing with these higher dimensions. Unless you put in deliberate effort to deal with this specific issue – though I haven’t done this, so I can’t vouch for it.

    People with Aphantasia, had a much easier time dealing with higher dimensions. Since it’s just a few extra variables on a piece of paper. While it made my head ache and made little logical sense.

    A friend of mine, who was a phenomenal cartoonist, regularly scored a 100% on history tests. When asked how he learns, he just said that, the entire textbook was just a huge story to him, and the story just replays in his head during tests.

    So they should start educating students on this while they’re in school. So they don’t pick up subjects they don’t know how to deal with, or so that they can pick up the skills required for such tasks early.

  • Landing Jobs and Girls, are the same?

    I’ve compared the dating market to the job market often. Can’t score a girl, and can’t score a job. And if you’re using dating apps and online job portals, it’s mostly about getting the recruiters attention.

    I thought of women I’ve met with, and they’ve often been through a friend introducing us. Introducing us? No, we should call it a referral! I managed to meet women because I got referrals from friends.

    In that sense, you can’t meet women now, because I got no referrals! You don’t have the connects. No connects, no referrals. You need someone to vouch for your skills, morals and values.

    But like in life, there are those with crazy skills and presence, that corporate really likes, that can land a job with no referrals, no connections, no outside help required. But if you don’t have that sort of distribution, you’re gonna need a referral to land a girl bro.

    I’ve confused you enough by mixing up jobs and referrals enough, time for you to come up with stupid ways to connect them yourself. And make sure you let me know what you come up with.

    Soo… if you’re feeling generous, I’d like your referrals. If not to your hot friends, that’s okay, job referrals are good too.

  • Side-Track Is Live on the App Store

    I’ve been working on this app, part of a larger product, on and off for a few months. It wasn’t a straight sprint. Progress came in bursts between other responsibilities, moments of motivation followed by stretches where life simply got in the way. Still, slowly, it started to resemble something real.

    Right before Christmas, I finally felt it was ready enough to submit for App Store review. Hitting that submit button felt like crossing a small but meaningful threshold. Whatever happened next, at least the app had reached someone else’s hands.

    By the new year, I had a response.

    Rejected.

    The reason itself was frustrating in a very particular way. The app had been reviewed on a platform it wasn’t designed to support. Side-Track was built for iPhone. I had explicitly removed support for iPad and macOS. Yet the review feedback indicated it had been tested on iPad, where it understandably did not work.

    I replied, explained the situation, and asked for the app to be reviewed on the intended platform. And then I waited.

    Waiting is where things tend to unravel a bit. With no response, doubt started creeping in. Maybe I had missed something. Maybe there really was a bug I hadn’t caught. This was my first iOS app, after all, and it didn’t feel unreasonable to assume the mistake was mine.

    I was tired, juggling other work, and slowly made peace with the idea that this wasn’t shipping anytime soon. I braced myself for another rejection email and mentally pushed the app down my list of immediate priorities.

    Then today, I got an email I honestly did not see coming.

    “Congratulations! We’re pleased to let you know that your app, Side-Track, has been approved for distribution.”

    It took a moment to register.

    Relief came first. That quiet exhale you don’t realize you’re holding. I went back to what I was doing, trying not to make a big deal out of it. People ship apps every day. This wasn’t some monumental achievement.

    But a few minutes later, I stood up and realized I felt lightheaded.

    That’s when it clicked. I was genuinely happy. Elated, even. That slow, delayed payoff after weeks of uncertainty hit harder than I expected. Delayed gratification, it turns out, is pretty powerful.

    This isn’t a finish line. If anything, it feels like the very first marker on a long road. Maybe one percent in. There’s still a lot of work left to do, and many things I want to improve, rethink, or build from scratch. But this small moment of progress made something clear.

    If making progress feels this good, then maybe it’s worth sticking with it.

    Side-Track is now live on the App Store everywhere.

    If you give it a try, I’d really appreciate your thoughts and constructive feedback. There’s still plenty to build, and your input will help shape what comes next.